because cool kids are boring

Recasting expectations

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In my head is this place where I write long form pieces commenting on my observations about modern nerd culture. While the comments came from a personal space, in my head they always seem some what detached from what is happening. Comments from outside.

The name free-geek has a couple of different meanings in my head.

1 – As I see it, we are in the process of recreating what it means to be a geek or nerd. These terms have no inherent meaning and we are taking advantage of that to redefine the terms. This had a bit more meaning back in ’08 when I came up with the phrase, but I think it still holds true. In this sense, a free geek is one who does not allow themselves to get bogged down in what these terms used to mean, but who is instead redefining the terms in a very personal way for themselves. Each free geek is different, and their uniqueness is their only defining characteristic.

2 – If you say the phrase quickly it blurs into freak. According to free dictionary, one definition for Freak is “A thing or occurrence that is markedly unusual or irregular”, which plays into the above meaning as well as providing a pretty good introduction to myself.

The truth of the matter is that I’ve never felt completely comfortable in this scene. I’ve always felt, to a certain extent, that I was pretending to be something that I wasn’t. I mean I haven’t collected comics since high school. I’m not a gamer. I don’t belong to any fandoms. I am a developer, but I don’t obsess over it. I’m not a Maker or a hacker or a science/math nerd. My grammar is horrible.

I know that I’m a nerd, because I feel like I’m a nerd. And I’m proud of this fact. But each time someone describes what a “nerd” is. I never seem to find myself represented. According to the people that I see as my peers, I don’t belong.

For 2013, I’m in a period of personal redefinition. And as part of that, I’m redefining what is. It is now the place where I engage with this scene that I don’t seem to belong in. An engagement that I’ll do on my terms and from my won unique head space. This is going to be the place where I learn what being a free geek really means.

Written by Matt

February 4th, 2013 at 12:00 pm

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